Sunday, October 14, 2007

i'm.. oh so tired

It's revival of the blog time.. at least for now until the next lapse occurs.

I'm in my final year of school and I have to say it's full of random emotions/feelings/sensations.

Happy
I only have 7 more months of assignments/tests/projects.
I have a job offer.

Sad
I only have 7 more months to get to know my fellow students.
My job offer places me in Calgary, away from my Edmonton friends.

Exhausted
I am Captain of this year's GNCTR team.
I have volleyball once a week.
I have various concerts for which I have foolishly purchased tickets.
It's midterm week.
I have re-downloaded Tetrinet2.
I'm having troubles at home and potentially w/ a close friend.
I am Captain of this year's GNCTR team.

Uncertain
Do I want to work in Calgary at my specific job?
Is it going to work out w/ family and friend?
Will I be able to handle being Captain?
What am I going to do with my one month off before work begins?

I must say I wish I was blissfully sensation-less. Sure, one could say I could stop signing up for so many things, but that's who I am. I like to keep busy to test myself. What can I accomplish? I know I can accomplish everything I set my mind to and I have this need to constantly prove it to myself. I also feel like I'm wasting time by not doing everything I can before the real world begins.

What I've realized is that busying myself with everything allows me to mentally distance myself from the negative things in life temporarily. This could have disastrous results on my personal life and it's already surfacing in my life as mental fatigue. I need to satisfy my want to stay busy and parry it with the occasional realization that I, being human, need to vent to supportive friends or just take some "me" time more often. Also, I need to stay off Facebook and Alluc.org and other such evil creations all linked together by the ultimate time-wasting world wide web.

I'm off to do some reading, a couple assignments, and study for two exams this week as I have a concert (which is unfortunately at the same time as my vball game) and a GNCTR team building event this week. I'm also heading to Calgary this weekend to do some of my own team building.

....I think I should probably take a stroll on the treadmill as well.

Posted by norwegian girl at 1:33 p.m.